The Simple Joys
Sitting here reading Erika's blog really made me think about how much fun it is to get joy out of the simple stupid things in life. I think it's totally important to focus on the good little things that happen through out your day instead of always waiting for something big to happen in your life to cause you to have joy. It's interesting how much easier it is to focus on the little negative things that happen through out your day instead of focusing on the little happy things. I'm really gonna try to think about the little things that make me laugh or make me happy because the way I figure it that way when something really bad happens in my life it will be easier to see the little joyful things because I'll already have been getting used to focusing on them. Plus when something big and happy happens to me, it will seem like so much more fun because I'll be use to looking at the little things. Maybe I just don't want to take forgranted some of the happy things in my life. Who knows how long they are gonna be around, and I'd really hate to take advantage of something only to have it taken away and me missing it. I hope that as I grow up I never lose sight of the little things that make me so happy. Like doing pedicures with Erika and talking about...well things...cough...I love the feeling of completing some really hard peice on the piano, or laughing till I feel like I'm gonna die and it's all about the word automobile, how I feel after a really long deep coversation with someone that I love. I think it's the little things in life that make life so wonderful, I mean what is better then watching What Lies Beneath for the hundredth time and still screaming at every scary part?? I hope I'm never to mature to sit and laugh with my friends for hours about something as stupid as someone hooing like an owl or someone being all bepuff-ed. And I know alot of people don't understand why those things bring me so much joy, but the ones that do understand me are I think soul mates of mine. They are the people who I know God put in my life to help me through the hard times, and the good times. They are the people who can make me smile just by drawing a face on a gum wrapper or walking around my house like some kind of stork. And those are the people that bring me the most simple joy.

Refreshed
This one is going to be pretty quick because my soap opera is coming on in like four minutes! Anyway, I just love it when you go through something difficult in your life and you come out feeling totally refreshed and liberated. Like in the bible when it talks about being refined by the God's flame or whatever...yeah I don't know the exact wording but I know it says that in there somewhere. So yeah that's what's been happening to me the last like month. It's like issues that I wouldn't let God have and didn't want to face or deal with, I've finally let Him have it and now everything is better. I'm not saying that the process was easy, and I know that I'm not toally done with it, but I'm just really feeling refreshed in Him or something like that. I'm also learning not to worry so much about the small details of my life but to just trust God with it and let things happen in His timing and not my own. Isn't my life suppose to be His now anyway? Well I think so, so I'm really working on just going with His flow. It's kinda nice not having to be so worried about things anymore. Not that I'll never worry again, but at least right now things are doing alot better in my life. And I'm just more happy and at peace with things. God's also been showing me some really cool things about who I am and what I'm gonna be doing and I'm really excited about what's ahead in my life. It's like once I got rid of some distractions and relaxed in God, everything turned out alot better. I love that God works like that!! I didn't even have to feel condemned about things that had been going on in my life that weren't of Him. All I had to do was say sorry give it to Him and not only did he not judge me about it, He comforted me and helped me through it. I just love that about Him. Ok well gotta go, Y and R is coming on!!!